So honestly I haven’t done much today; I didn’t even do a drawing, though I’m going to get back in the swing of that tomorrow. But honestly that’s okay by me. The fact that I just spent the day in my room relaxing felt good. It’s like a sort of reset, so I can come into the week feeling refreshed. I mean the last two days have been crazy, as I got drunk with friends old and new, so today was definitely the perfect day to just not. I mean I woke up at noon, hung out in my bed for a while, finally hopped in the shower and made myself some lunch, and I watched LCS (professional League of Legends) for most of the rest of the day. When I wasn’t doing that, I was just playing some League or surfing the net, as time passed me by. Of course there were definitely plenty of things I could’ve done today, but I am okay with just not doing that. Getting one day to just breathe felt really nice, honestly.
Now the one thing that I think is potentially exciting is the fact that I got an email from Eataly, asking if I could come in for an interview on Wednesday. Amd you know, maybe this will amount to nothing, but the fact that I have the opportunity to hopefully get a new job before I lose the one I have now; a job where I can actually make a living wage and not want to die from stress because I literally can’t pay rent at the moment is amazing. I want June to be my month to turn things around in my life, and get back on track. I want to be able to be open to going to more auditions, and hopefully land a gig so I can start just acting to pay my bills, but I want to at least have the chance to do that. Right now, I’m dealing with being outside all damn day, not able to do my job properly because I’m not good at it. It’s frustrating but it’s true. And my boss Edwin had a meeting with the main employees on Friday, basically saying that we have to keep our numbers up, or we’re outta here. Greaat. As I’ve said before, I want to leave this job on my terms, not because I get fired. That is no damn fun.
So that’s something I get to look forward to, and we’re still counting down the days before I write that letter to W. I still am not sure at all if it’s a good idea, but I’m still going to send it, because I want to. It may be selfish, and maybe she’ll never write back, or I’ll get a text message being like “please don’t send me any more letters” but this is the only chance I really have. I could wait a long time, but I’m impatient. I think I’m going to send the letter on the 21st, which is the end of next week, so the date is getting closer, slowly but surely. But enough about that. Honestly all I’ve done tonight is run to my local Rite-Aid, pick up some things to eat for breakfast, headed home, and have been playing League with Maggie and Devon all night. I did make some dinner, which was just some chicken fried rice from Trader Joe’s, because I really wasn’t in the mood to do any shopping. But tomorrow is a new day, and I’m going to actually make some chicken and rice for myself, which should last me until Wednesday. Now then, it’s time for sleep. Here’s to another week. Keep your fingers crossed and wish me luck!
Until next time,